Pain

I can't remember when I lived without pain, daily pain. It was just a few years ago, I'm sure, but it's difficult to be clear when your every day is begun and ended in pain. I have a degenerative spinal condition, probably genetically passed on, and arthritis, but the pain used to come and go. When it decided to stay, I opted for surgery. Although the specific kind of pain I had before surgery was relieved, another kind has taken its place and restricts my life immeasurably.

There was a time when I didn't understand why anybody would want to take his own life. I no longer feel that way. Although I don't want to check out right now, I'm beginning to understand why people would. As one's world gets smaller and smaller, it's not much of a life. Add almost seven decades of living to it, and looking ahead seems almost ridiculous. So, if you're young and healthy, stop a moment and savor it. You will surely age, and you may break down.

Have a good weekend. If only I could get rid of this damned pain!